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[Apr. 12th, 2007|06:15 pm] |
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so right now i think i have hit a groove....i mean everything is going pretty good..my friends are all mixed up but i am at a good place right now i think. My marks are back to where they SHOULD be! Im thinking no play next year(if there is one) cuz well..they when my marks went down hill so ya none of that. Also baseball tonite pretty stocked for that, like i really am. The shorty is good to...Kamloops is in the future but i bet i can handle it quite well if i just dont think about it..also france/italy next year i am way to stoked for that..like really...yes i will miss everyone cuz SO much can happen but think of this..all my friends who have dramatic stuff are comnig with me so really...nothing can happen...tres bon..
ok i now have to go get ready
Chow..un peu et demi |
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[Apr. 5th, 2007|09:55 pm] |
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KATIE CALL ME
OK so best thing EVER happened this week..
usually i will ask can i go here with school...they usually say yes..unless flying is involved..my dadhas this crazy idea that if any of us are going to die on a plane..we will do it as a family...ok...well...thats just nuts...BUT i think i got through..only for the reason that im gonig to FRANCE AND ITALY NEXT year...yes i am excited but it is with katie, joe, probs james and sam and michelle...come on five of my great friends..in europe..where possibly the best person at speaking french is laura...she is amazing but if she doesnt wanna come with us and wants to sleep..we shall be screwed...greatly screwed...i can see it now..james trying to talk french and insulting the most amount of ppl and getting us arrested...it will happen..thankfully he will never read this. so ya im so excited beyond all belief...so if i repeat it alot im sorry..but i have never traveled past disneyland...EVER winnipeg and disneyland..farthest places..oh and Prince George....so i will be on the eiffel tower on my birthday...of only the little one could come..but NOO he didnt take a language... fine i will have fun without him..and yes i am talking about this early and yes i have used WAY to many periods..WAY to many.. but they amuse me and it makes it kinda look weird when u stare at it to long...seriusly just try...HAHA hopefully u just tried cuz i soo just did.
Lately i have said the weirdest things..mostly to katie..like my skills to make ppl do things...and random second heads and such..also asian legs..HAHAHA katie i win...how that made any sence..
Also, i have baseball today...how great is that!!! so great thats right!
i wanna catch for 2 reasons..ONE i love to catch..favourite position ever SECOND the other catcher..well i hate her so really blah to her THIRDLY i just want to...make sense good if not well.....ya can u tell the hypernesss running though my veins...see if my dogs didnt wake me up this morning when they did i would be probably fine right nowe...bUT NOOO the have to come in my room at like 7 to come say FEED ME but in dog so it be more like ...woof woof... ya something like that...then they had the cats attack from above..ya they jumped on my head..totally sucks cat on my head...dearly not cool. ya os i g2g get my baseball junk on...if i can find it....AWKWARD...ok see everyone at another date and katie if u see this CALL ME |
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[Mar. 30th, 2007|12:35 pm] |
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ok so i dont really care if anyone reads this...this is going to be a poor me thing and i am going to write it here only for the reason that i cant tell anyone cuz they will tell me im stupid and should get over it
EVERY FREAKIN TIME I GET CLOSE TO SOMEONE It FAILS. It is like i have this sign above my head saying..when u hit a certain point kill her soul. I swear it happens everytime i get a really good friend i loose them...it happens everytime..i cant even count on my hands how many freakin times it has happened...after they have gotten all the info they need to survive they leave me to die. It has always happened and it always will...i really should be used to this but iunno..something about the feeling that none of ur friends ever make an effort to try and see u starts to cut u deep. i mean yes u could say i dont try well..BULLSHIT i try pretty freakin hard..i try and get stuff together but it will never work out...there is a part of the human brain that wants to kill me..everyone has it...but some can chanel it.. and others cant and it ruins everything...i am the type of person who keeps every dam thing on the inside...it works best... i find because then no one knows they hurt you..and when they dont know what hurts you they cant use it later agaisnt u...yes slightly paranoid...w/e it makes it all the better cuz then they can use that to. everyone hurts i just show it differently...ie)kickboxing...when i hit u...im actully pictureing someones face on urs...sorry now..mostly daniel cuz he is the only one who sees this who is in kickboxing. ya thats my rant...sorry if u read this..but i needed that..see ther would be more...BUT it may start to repeat so.. |
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[Mar. 21st, 2007|04:47 pm] |
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I am an idiot...a HUGE idiot...
i got back from disneyland on sunday and we took a cab to this substation to get our car and guess what i lost....my ipod...
oh ya my ipod either on the plane OR in a cab....which is really horrible cuz i have gone to long without music and it is really getting to me..i reALLY NEED MY MUSIC...but i am getting a new one now either tonite or sometime this week so i need help..wither a nano)cuz there are no minis) or a video ipod...i don know what to go for its either one but i do have to pay for it which i can totally understand since i did lose it..so i need help give me ideas please |
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[Mar. 6th, 2007|09:53 pm] |
OMG i ammmm sooooooooooooo hyper!!! at soccer today i could not stop moving!! me played in the puddle and i got OWNED harshly!! but it was amazing and i was wearing sushi shorts which were wayy to cool!!! they realyl were i swear...and well ya my hypernessess is amazing i havent felt this way fooorrr sooo long!! i love it!!! and disney land infive days!!! and birthday in 10days!!! HAHJHFLSHFLSDGHDSLGHFSLGHLDSFFSDLK |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2007|11:23 pm] |
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So lately things have been quite weird. People have been acting differently...like the little one..he has been acting really strange and distant which is not a good thing i think...im just not sure anymore what anything means. So many things happen and i just dont understand them anymore. ITs all a cloudy blur to me lately. And if you know me you know i hate being a in a blur its the worst thing. I hate not understanding things, i hate not knowing whats going on in my life and whats going to happen next. Good things are great but not having a clue whats going to come next scares me greatly. The only thing is most of my friends probs wouldnt get this cuz they dont ever know whats going to come next and thats cool. To me if i dont know where i am going i feel horrible. Ill stress and if those freaking panic attacks come back...just watch out. i also hate how when i get like this people think im totally nuts. I have this friend...we dont talk often and barely hang out but he sent me a message making sure i am ok. Not even my bestest friends do that. But he did...i guess we dont really know who are realy friends are do we? not till it really matters and its down to it. People usually wont care if they were given the choice to care or not..they may see hey your not looking good are you ok? but they never really want to know..if they really id they would ask you in a little bit..just to make sure everything went over fine. Its something that no one does anymore. We act like we care an unless you follow up on that how do we know you really care? does that make any sence? without the real knowing how do we know? that made no sence to me at all but it kidna did. back to the blur thing...its a really bothersome thing...when my friends are into the whole there she is lets all just pretend nothing is wrong. Thats what happens cuz no one knows how to act. they dont know what to say anymore they just dont. Barely anyone actully cares to know...they just want there lives..and no one elses because they get to stressed...well
BULLSHIT people who think they know stress just ont...none of us really know...ya school sucks no time blah blah blah all teens have that people in colege have that...they mite think since they are in college they are any different...but are not...we just have ifferent worries thats all...all of them play a HUGE FREAKING part in our lives...some of my friends worry about bullying where others feel liek if they ont get A's The world shall crass...if i dont get 97 percent oh fucl the world ill crash...it wont..one bad mark will not kill anyone..we just think it will because NONE of us care anymore...we dont care about peoples feeling or anything...well
i wanna start to care, i actully, truthfully want to know my friends problems be them tiny or huge...i wanna know cuz if i didnt what kind of friend would i be? and horrible thats what i would be..cuz thats what we are all now..there is someof us..but they do the awkward smile an wont talk to you for the rest of the day...some people care dont get me wrong there are those people who rock..just none of them show it that often. relating closer to the top. We dont know who our friends are...one day its this perosn next its this person...to me a friend would be the person who asked you what was wrong and gave you ways to fix it..helped you when you were down..and when you did somthing stupi dont try and justify it by a great response that adults would. Thats not a friend...thats someone rubbing it in your face that you made a mistake an that they are way greater than you cuz they dont make mistakes..well you do..everyone does..we all will forever and ever..no more trying to find out why and blame lets all just fix it!
One more thing..everyone will totalyl not belive me but...guys are way better are fixing these types then girls i swear...guys will care that omg shes upset lets fix this and they will try they wont butter it up trying to make it all go away they wanna know whats wrong and fix it..girls have a problem with this sometimes..we have to dig an dig and dig at things to find every freakin part of it..some problems are easy lets just deal with it and not dwell on it |
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[Feb. 20th, 2007|07:09 pm] |
ok so pretty much i am screwed for next year. I am taking
-Chem 12
-physics 12
-english 12
-math 12
-calculus 12
-crim 12
-spare
-and english lit 12???
i mite take that last one SINCE i dont have to take french 12 which..even though i love my tsui i just cant o it cuz i would probs kill myself...big time
i love my sciences and maths ya i get that but should i do all this?? with soccer, baseball, volunteering twice a week, and working 3 days a week...an granted i may take another shift from some one there but i just dont kno..and well this shall suck royaly like big time but oh well like i wanted a life anyway
ok now i shall indulge all of you about my Fastpitch skills...
my mom is the register and since that i know EVERYTHING about EVERYONE..no joke..
i could look up any allergy you have..how long you have played and everything...but oh look i have memorized all the fastpitch stats...i can pretty much recite all coaches...i know how many females in the squirt league..its a sad concept..like really sad i have to say. What is going to make this all better is that..I DONT HAVE TO UMPIRE!! haha i love it...that guy was an ass then and still is i dont care what anyone says i diserved the level two games i worked my ass off for...he gave the guys the games when they are in level 1 and dont even show up but NOOO i have to do squirt..(thats a really young age) it sucked!! thats not fair at all..So wat i did was worked in the connsession stand. Easy job you know all that but this year jeenie(breadons mom) is not doing it..I will miss her cuz it was the most fun working with her i swear we had a blast. Then me and jenny.(who is my moms friend who moved to Vancouver..) totqally sucks cuz she gave the best massages..EVER i swear a great women...an well she cant run it so well...guess who has to take it on again..my mom probs has to...which will totally suck for her ...she did it when i first started baseball she ran the consession...for at least 7 years...then three years agoe she made jenny do it..i worked for her in her last year...and jeenie took over kinda for jenny that thrid year...all was cool..but now since he probs wont be oing it my mom will probably have to which will totally suck cuz that means (being the most adicted to this kinda thing) i will probably have to help my mom(i volunteered..shit..) and well there goes my already used up weekends...give it, i love doing this kinda thing with my mom...something about that baseball park..i could do any of the jobs..have to be me ont i..dam it...an well i pretty much am gonig to lvie there since i wanna help Rhona coach a team(she is a squirt coach..best one there is ...all girls want her...two girls are already on her team) ya i told you i know waaaayyyy to much...i could name so many people just because of this whole 10-11 years of being a slave to the diamonds. i mite as well set up a cot there it would be easier..(its kinda like katie and swimming) ya i said it..an pretty much only katie and laura would get that...w/e/... its gonna happen... really love the sport but so help me if i get on the same team as ..well how should i put this..The girl i hate in life??!?!?! just think austin powers 3 and you mite know who...and ya its gonna suck cuz i would hate to play on her team soo much cuz she annoys everyone an know one in tha park likes her.. no one at all..im not kidding she is hated by sooo many people there and they tell me cuz they think i liek her..BULL SHIT!! no one wants her at all...no coach no umpire no player...everyone hates her so much an I KNOW IT...and everyone else knows it. she cheers badly and has really BAD sportsman ship.. i really wanna be on Tessa bartz team...REALLY Badly...she has been no bad teams for a long time so i wanan be on her team..i need my facts of the day i really do. And then amanda pope...that would be sweet. Then Sam and KEls....i kno i bitch about kels sometimes but her on my baseball team would ROCK..an samm yes she is a bit of a competorer...but this is a sport i would kick her ass at...she dont even know it..i kno that sounded horrible to say but you all know what i mean..i hope or i just looked really bad but at this second not caring...AT ALL. |
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[Feb. 19th, 2007|08:13 pm] |
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OK havnt posted in forever so bare with me.
I HATE THIS. things are just nuts i wanna brake down and cry at any moment cuz everything seems to be bareing down on me. U mite all say no you dont have that much going on everyone else has much more...well maybe they have more activities...but they mite not have the fighting friends, the bitching people. people who are really hurt, an the friends with the fucked up lvoe lives. Everyone has them once in a while but i have them all the time! People i know are really messed up! its just a never ending cycle. I love how all my friends can trust me and they all think i can take in what they say, make then laugh and its all better....but they dont think about how it affects me. i then think all the time is this happening wats going to happen next are they ok>? well i kno i could just say dont tell me i will get all worried but thats not how i roll(yes gangster terminoligy) i just fin it so hurting that these things happen to my friends i can do nothing about them...i just make it into a type of joke and its all better. its annoyingsum
Ok next rant...
i took on a bit more than i could chew this term. The play, friends, soccer, work an everything its all coming down..hard and fast.(heehee) its getting a to me now...i hate feeling like im gonig to go up in ruins if i ont get one thing done early enough.
and dont even get me started on the social life...its getting bogged down...i wanna hang out with certain people but i dont have time..i cant hang out with my "other half of brain" anymore because neither of us have any time. {p.s. other half of brain we need a starbucks date soon) im totally sucking right now at soccer...an the working working out thing..not doing so well i really wanted to get in shape but thats not going to work. cuz me having time just aint gonna happen. |
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[Feb. 6th, 2007|05:18 pm] |
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Ok, so this had been a pretty good day. I did my math test..with daniel swenson..NO JOKE..totally talked and discussed some stuff in math great time. Then lunch was pretty sweet. Portfolio is back though not to happy bout that but w/e i will get use to it. AND wat makes today the best is that i meet this really nice person and they turn out to be a totaly jackass! like WTF!! Does the world have to put these kinds of ppl on it?? liek seriusly!!! THIS just pisses me off...a person you meet and they are nice and deep but NOO they have to become total JACKASS..this makes no sence..i was in a super sweet mood and now..shit... |
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[Jan. 31st, 2007|06:04 pm] |
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Ok, so everyone has that special person in which they can confide anything in...
And i think i may have found that person...its kinda a weird thought. I have thought this before but i dont think this one will leave. We all go through times when you can talk to one certain person..but i have been able to talk to one person for possibley over a year now and thats AMAZING! When your younger and at this age..you have a best friend. When you were 5 it was the one that u lent you Neopet to while you went away and when you were 10 it was the kid that you would not tag during Bubble gum tag. When you hit 14 it was the one you drank ur first sip with....wat describes a best friend now? Its the person that you can tell your wish and they will make it come true. Or they are the one that volunteers their time with you so you dont have to do a totally horrible job by yourself. Its the people like that who make everything good. The better thing is(i dont care about my grammer..*cough*katie*cough*) that now at this age there isnt one best friend. There is a best friend FOR EVERYTHING. There is a sport buddy, a talking buddy, a movie buddy, the boy buddy, the girl buddy, the buddy who helps you out of a jam, computer buddy, phone buddy, homework buddy, play buddy, lunch buddy, the buddy who will cry with you, the budddy who laughs with you. I could go onw but you would get bored so i shall not! There is possibly someone for EVERYTHING. And its not more the girls have girl best friends and visa versa..its both now! i love being able to talk to the guys like a guy and like a girl. Love talking to the girls like they are girls or guys. ITS THE BEST EVER!!! |
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[Jan. 31st, 2007|05:55 pm] |
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So overall today was a pretty awsome day. Nothing big happened but nothing bad...I got a ton of stuff checked off for my portfolios which made me very excited. So ya that was cool. I had chem first..it was interesting nothing special but interessting. Then math...omg..it was a bit...nuts? dyl, Swenson and I did a one question quiz together and Mr.Hill didnt care AT ALL. It was fantastic! I got perfect on it with the Help of the boys. It was really nice. I havent been hanging out with that group really anymore. It may be because i feel a bit detached from any group really. Its not the people because they probs are the best in the school, its more the fact that things are different now. We have all changed and i do like it but im kinda scared of it at the same time. It did this thing that i didnt like to much. You know when you are with friends and they have all these inside jokes and you have NO clue wat so ever about it so you feel kinda left out? well thats how im kinda feeling right now. Its a new group with a ton of sweet new people. I love the group but its still the awkward thing going on which should pass really soon. All i want is the groups i hang ou to join. Everyone we love to join ranks and make a HUGE group of everyone. We could take over the cafe and everything...
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| Running through the isles of our lives |
[Jan. 27th, 2007|12:12 pm] |
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I think i just want one day to do nothing. I want a Pro'd day that i actully do the most random stuff. and here is my list to proof i want to do this:
-Wake up early enough to go for a nice long run outside while listening to good music.
-Go out for Breakfast at Ricky's with a TON of friends and sit there for two hours.
-All go back to someones house and play cranium with the tons of people wihle eating junk food.
-Order a ton of pizza, drink pop, eat as much candy as possible and watch the newest/funniet movies we can possibly find.
That it will be a day for me, when i dont kno, but it will happen because everytime A day off comes i get to work at 330 which really cuts down on my chill time.(and yes i so just said chill time) I think that everyone should get one day every month that they do these types of things, The most random things but they have to flow...
Other things that could be added are:
-Silly sting fights all over town.
-Making a fort and eating skittles inside of it.
-Playing Poker for hours on end.
-Making Sundaes.
-Trying to find a Tim Hortons in GTA...(long story there)
-Cuddling with blankets and drinking tea. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2007|12:05 am] |
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Ok so i walk home from katies and it was horrible. Not the katies part but the whole walking home on freaky fog. Some of you kno i am pretty scared of the dark and pretty much everything else in life so this wasnt cool! I hate walking home by myself be it in the dark or in the light(i dont liek being alone..at all...) So i got way to creeped out since i coudlnt see more then ten feet in front of me. It was all foggy and scary and gross and i thought i was going to be stabbed...but i didnt..SPECIAL ME!!! I walked REALLY fast and since im not that quick thats a big step for me and it rocked because i wasnt stabbed by any creepy stalker man or anything it was SO BONNE!!! OH YA!! and yes i was scared of that i dont like the dark and when u hear rustleing in the leaves or the sound of quick foot steps behind you, you would start to speed up as well....trust me most people would. and if u dont..u really need to be... |
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| This is going to be fun |
[Jan. 24th, 2007|10:10 pm] |
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I love the days when nothing had really gone wrong but nothing has really gone right. I dont kno y! i just get a little bit hyper and they i start to giggle and then i talk the most gullible teacher into letting me help her with a class next year...wanna guess the class??? starts with a PL end in a ANNING CAN U GUESS?!?! PLANNING!!! the most hated subject on life...Me and katie figurede out that if we could manipulate her when we were in grade ten! think about what we could do in gr12?!?!?? its amazing the thought process and planning when into this!! ITS AMAZING!!! me and katie sitting there with coffe marking portfolios..or atleast helping...in charge of little lives that will be fun i must say...it will be an experience since i will have this "free block" it will not matter much...It shall be amausing what Dr.BOB says because he is the only one standing in our way... and i mean THE ONLY ONE |
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| happiness in a far off land... |
[Jan. 16th, 2007|06:13 pm] |
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What makes you happy?..thats all i want to know is wat makes you truly happy. Its something that is kinda important to me right now. I dont care how weird or if you want to tell me insecret..its just something i would like to know |
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[Jan. 15th, 2007|06:45 pm] |
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ok, fun times shall be revieled...
Nothing really fun has happened at all in the last few days. i got a new computer chair that wont try and kill me :) happy times. Then rehersals..till 5...oh dear you know the end of life is coming when?
Also, on Saturday i went to ricky's with katie and i got bacon...me and katie were so bored we talked about the piggy who died for my food. His name is alfred and to me he understood his place...on my plate. Katie on the other hand though he definatly was suppose to be in the mud. I disagree BUT what are you gonna do right? When nothing really happens in my life its harder to write journals.
OH i feel really hard on the freakin ice on Friday and lost a full and i mean FULL Venti vanilla tes misto(rather known as a "london Fog") i was so hurt and disapointed i wanted to cry but didnt because they would freeze to my face. Its a great thing when you spill a hot drink on the road and it freezes with in seconds...its great really it is.
Also, Ms.Tsui reads minds i swear. She gives me this look like "i know what your thinking" its a creepy look and she used it today when we were in her room talking about the play. She knew right away it was about a special someone who shall remain namesless...[People in the play(mostly girls) Know what i mean] Its horrible...the place beside my boobs..IN NOT MY FREAKIN HIPS...if i have to yell that one more time!! Also, hugging someone or holding their hands IS NOT AWKWARD!! Physical contact is not awkward especially when you are acting!! IT DOESNT MAKE SENCE! Why when i am nice, and wearing a sweater, to someone its all creepy and awkward but when i i am wearing a low cut, cow holder its not awkward at all...they hug you tighter. Its just a slight thing not a huge kill me now...well its not really that kind of a big thing. Also, right now i am typeing without looking and i havent messed up to much but how would anyone know i could just back space it. I hate the fact that when i look at the keyboard i make more mistakes. OR when i type i love you i usually type i lvoe you. Its quite annoying actully.
As you can tell i am going nuts! lately i have been SUPER depressed and i didnt know why..its kinda weird and well LJ IS AMAZING!! this helps me let everything out and in the open! You cant really get mad on this. Its peoples feelings and they should be able to say stuff..im gonna get going...catcha all in the l8er |
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[Jan. 14th, 2007|02:28 pm] |
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ok, so i love the play. The people the atmosphere...except rehersals...if we could do the play perfectly without the rehersals i would be sooo happy. But this is reality.
It makes little boys get all jealus and it ruins my life. If boys could get over themselves and understand the fact just because we hang out with someone doesnt mean we are theirs. We are yours not that boy in math or the boy you have to dance with in the play..*coughcough* |
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[Jan. 13th, 2007|12:22 am] |
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i shall post..but at a l8er date...maybe tomorow |
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| Lets all just.... |
[Jan. 9th, 2007|10:00 pm] |
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ok so i am going to rant and rave bout everything so if you dont want to hear it...dont read it..
Ok, so this is whats going on in my life. School..thats a subject that can die right this second. I am actully trying this term..(that doesnt happen ofter) and well..i feel like its not gonig to help. Everyone tries and some fail so what if i am no different. If i get less then 83% in any class...cept french...then i get a biiiggg long speech about how i am smarter than that and u should try harder..well you know if my parents had my life they would know...i guess they have an idea since they work and all... but whatever.
OK ADD moment...the paper next to me is folding..by itself...it is apart of a huge roll...noe back to my ranting.
School in just deciding to suck right now. I did really poorly on the physics test and if my daddy find outs then i am positvily screwed . Its not my week..really its not but you know how it is
Some people have also been a little bit weird lately. They seem to be not happy. It may be the whole no sun thing but i think some things are really affecting them. Its hard since in some problems that cant be solved what do u say to those. They seem unsolveable. Its just hard to see my friends doing that to themselves it really is. Also, I HATE DOING PROJECTS WITH LAZY PEOPLE. This one person doesnt get their work done and that means that we will have to do this HUGE project that counts for so much of the marks is going to be late maybe. I really want to work on it tomrow but she will get lazy and then it wont be done which makes things way to hardto even comprehend. Some of you know who this person is...I really they would just toughen up and not be like that any more. The project is really big and its just gets so boring to do but we have to buckle down and get it done. Im not saying she is the only one to blame here..i could push her..but she is kinda stubborn and does nothing if she doesnt want to so ya.
One more thing that just makes my life a little bit harder is well..it was small and not a huge deal..but my grandma had a very tiny stroke on the weekend. It was so small that it had a different name but it fell under the category of a stroke which scares me. She looked after me for years, everyday before and after preschool and i went there many days after school when my mom was at work. That was until i was in grade5 i think. So it hits hard...shes getting older and well 79 isnt young any more. If something happened i just would have a huge peice missing. She and my grandpa lived with us when my dad moved away for a year(no family problems he had to work up North) and that was when i was in grade 1. Thats a huge year you learn tons then. It would be way to difficult to feel whole again. I rarely wear my heart on my sleeve(i think i know what that means, oh well) but i would be devastated. You can tell my week has been a little bit..horrible. Its just not been nice. This whole year didnt start very well.
An upside is that it is snowing and i like watching snow. Not having to walk to school in it..but i like looknig at it.. i love the way it smells and looks...and the wa it falls on your tongue. I also love..well how nice it is to take a leisure walk through it. Just to be with someone and walk through the snow and know that at that exact moment nothing could go wrong. Then you slip and fall...except thats fun because you take the other person down with you and its all fun!
Another side note is that after tomrow i get to stand in line for a few hours waitng to get a passport...I am a very impatient person. And i will budge if need be. But i have to leave REALLY early but i get IHOP!! hopefully there are funnel cakes!! I LOVE THOSE THINGS!! OMFG the appel cinnamen one is SOO GOOD!! and the berry one would be amazing!! AAAAAAHAHAHAGHKDGHDSGSKS ya i freaked on the keyboard for reaosn i dont know but the thought of funnel cakes makes me fun inside. I LOVE IT!! I also miss a whole day a school AND i am going to watch my portable dvd player while i wait..it shall be amazing! i have to say.. I will be in a better mood by then i hope. It shall be fine i think. Lets all just hope.
Ok so i have to explain my weekend i had tree chipping on the weekend. It was with the boys and girls club so it was pretty fun. I did it with sam, paige and some people from the club that no one knows. But my boss billy, he is pretty cool and at the club he is really funny. But when there is no kids around HE IS THE BEST GUYS EVER! he is sooo funny. There is this one girl that that pisses him off and when he got of the phone with her all he said was." F*CK F*CK C*NT C*NT C*NT" he said it so many times it was so funny!! then we just talked and everything he parties pretty hard...we talked about good drinks to have and everything. Mike(grade 12) was there to. He is alot like Billy especially when no kids are around cuz then you can say which ones you would like to through in the tree chipper. Its quite fun.. also after all that i couldnt feel anything below my kness...that not a good thing. I did it saturday and sunday at nine...then till about 12 on the first day and 2 on the second day. Its not a nice thing. Except that there were these elderly people. They were nice i have to say.
I have never used this much time to write something so if you read this you have alot of time on your hands..
But i still thank you for taking your time to find out whats happening in mine.
PS I REALLY have to work on my spelling! |
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[Jan. 9th, 2007|07:44 pm] |
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OMG its hailing so bad right now! i was so looknig forward to soccer to! grrr. oh well its all good.
Lets just mention one thing..8 weeks till opening night...GAH |
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